i was browsing through deviantart just now. actually i was in meiyee's deviantart. hehe great photos meiyee :) then i saw this "emotive" link and i clicked it.

here are the emotive pieces that i like, and that i feel at present.
heeeehe.


i really like the whole emoness of it all. like he's just there not becoz he has nothing better to do, but bcoz he chose to just be there and do nothing.

 
these two reminds me of how a family should really be like. :) girl all grown up into a real beauty, as in with her feminine features prominent, and with the dad and mum so happy together. especially that photo of the dad smiling towards the mom. it shows how much he loves her hee hee.


oh this is one emo piece that i really like. it reminds me of romeo, and it reminds me of mr how. :):):)
YES i do adore mr how and i like his tidak boleh belah attitude. even if he's like that it doesnt mean he's REALLY like that. cant u guys see, the sensitivity in him. sheesh some people are just blind. and yes, i dont care how much u disagree with me, coz he's juz awesoooomeeeee. its ur loss people :P


oh this isnt from deviantart , but i really like the sky and the sea below. its just so freaking cool ya know. if i get to be there to witness it before me omfg i would just die in awe for it is like an opening to the wonders above and i dunno. like a dream come true :) it reminds me how powerful nature could be. ya know.


ooh i like this one bcoz it reminds me of how i would haven taken my photos if i had noting to do and pretend to be emo and stuff lmao.

  
HEEE I would wanna try taking a photo like this. its so beautiful :P everything is. the sky, the kiss the guy, the surrounding. i really like the colour of the sky. sooooo full of energy


something with the second picture that caught my eye *lmao* i think its cz it reminds me of how an emo person would look like when hes waiting. and it struck me as to how much i hate waiting as well. and i know how he feels. oh the first picture is great, it makes me feel like as if what he is seeing is some kind of forest that is haunting and yet mysteriously intriguing coz we just get to see a glimspe of what hes seeing and its scary enough to provoke the coward in me lol.
more like a scene from somewhere with alot of danger going on. alot of adrenaline rush.

and this is my favourite :



:):):)

SMILEEEEE-lin' hahaa this picture makes me feel so calm. so relaxed. tranquility at its best. AND I WANT HIM!!! haha thats who i wanna be with. i wanna be him, i wana feel how he feels. ~~ which is damn wonderful.
aaaaah :)

u knwo what. now i remember why i like xanga. coz the photo upload would be much simpler i wouldnt have to rearrange like how i have to in blogspot. but blogspot would load faster though. haha i love xanga <3 its just a place called

home :)

wow.. its been so long ever since i blogged here. i agree wholeheartedly with meiyee about how it is better to express myself here. life hasnt been the way i wanted it to be. yet we all contradict ourselves most of the time dont we. we dont even know how we want our life to be exactly, and when we really reach to that very point like the way we wanted, we realize it isnt what we want in the end.

very contradicting.

very confusing.

my sej teacher taught us about yin and yang. i always knew it is fengshui related and how its about the seperation between good and evil surrouding us. but i never related it to how the world revolves around it, how there always is a balance between the two. how there are opposites in everything. come to think of it, isnt it so true? and maybe what we used to think as bullshit, fengshui i mean, isnt so much of bullshit after all. dont u think so?

ive been going through my dad's stuff awhile ago. not on purpose of course. i was just looking around and i saw a stack of cds. how i missed those times i used to sleep in his car, accidently as he was driving the family to some destination i dont anticipate. its funny how things work.. you dont appreciate something when its so available.. u take it for granted. but when its gone, u come to think of it more. and suddenly u miss it. when you're in that moment you dont give a shit.. but when the moment isnt here anymore you feel so nostalgic. so maybe thats why i have a thing for oldies. omg. haha im listening to my dad's eagles cd. track 8. i dont wanna talk about it. my dad used to play this all the time in his car.. haha and listening to it now makes me feel very ambivalent. very emo and happy and just at peace. :D and im chatting with meiyee now. about lots of stuff, but not just conversation. everything is valuable dont you think, no matter the conversation is with or without substance..

as long as it is what comes out of that person's mind.

in years to come, as u think about it again, and relive the past, you will most definitely miss that 'unvaluable' conversation without any substance. dont you think? what you talk about matters, but its the person ure talking to matters most.

haha listening to first cut is the deepest.. i dont believe in that. :) as i told dashini and sanjay earlier, it doesnt have to be so rigid. it doesnt necessarily mean u will love the person most in ur first relationship. people learn to lvoe more in second relationships, and get deeper cuts.

thats my thinking.

hmm. i dont have credit now.. the bf's location is unknown. i know he doesnt have credit, but sometimes i cant help but wonder if he would msg me just cuz he feels like it or he has to wait for me to msg him. hmm . things to wonder.. nothing big. and i really feel the blogging vibe now. i feel so comfortable blogging here i wonder why did i ever leave.. if xanga hadnt been so slow i wouldnt in the first place. everything happens for a reason regardless.. as what is once said. i cant go back and start a new beginning but i can start now and make a new ending. right cassidy? and i guess i'm just like that. selfcentered.. just do what i wanna do. live my life. blog wherever i want to and it is you who has to follow me. not me following the norm. so sorry, but its just me.

undecided and im okay with it.

:)

nice to see you again, old reader.